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Chasing The American Dream

December 09, 2004


It’s interesting how certain places, locations, songs, and movies define points in time in our lives. I am closing the chapter of another relationship that could have been the end of the chase. When I think about never returning to ‘our spot’ ever again, it saddens me. Leaves me feeling empty.

She was ‘THE ONE.’ I had no doubts. How it all began and how it all ended up will be revealed over time, my friends. Of course, it’s already been written about in the book. It was supposed to be the end of the book, but I’ve got some re-writing to do now.

In her case, it was both a song *and* a location. I used to see her little white Mazda Protégé in a parking spot far away from the other cars and under some trees. I think she parked there because of the shade although I never thought to ask her. I’d back my car in the spot next to hers and wait for her. I’d smile broadly and my heart beat faster upon seeing her leaving the building as she headed toward her car. Don’t you just love that moment when all the anticipation that has built up is instantaneously cashed in upon that first moment of eye contact?

I’d hug her and never want to let her go. It all felt so right. I was mesmerized. She was almost there but couldn’t quite let her self go. Why, you ask? We’d quickly catch each other up. Our meetings were brief. Why, you ask? Once, we actually moved our meeting to a bar and had lots of laughs and good conversation over some Pinot. But it was only once. Why, you ask? Well for this tragic hero, if you will, the answer was all too familiar. She had to go home to her boyfriend.

And so every time I pass that parking lot now, it’s a bittersweet moment. Sometimes I have the urge to drive by ‘the spot’ and reflect upon those simple moments. I dedicated a song to her to capture those feelings. It was our song. And that’s what I’m talkin’ about. Every time I see ‘the spot’ or hear ‘the song,’ I remember…

Oh, the song? It’s by a band called Keane. The title? Well…

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when, you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?


  • PT, I read the lyrics to that song, and in my mind I could only think of one thing to which it pertained:
    GIN, sweet, glorious GIN.

    (laugh, you gots to always laugh).

    As The Big Lebowski would say: "...strikes and gutters man; strikes and gutters."

    By Blogger Bubbles, Ink., at 2:11 PM, December 09, 2004  

  • Yeah, 'strikes and gutters.' I like that. Been throwin' too many gutterballs lately...

    By Blogger Plantation, at 2:18 PM, December 09, 2004  

  • Shite will even itself out; you'll see.

    By Blogger Bubbles, Ink., at 4:40 PM, December 09, 2004  

  • I realize that I have little to no clout when it comes to music, but if you like Keane you should check out Travis (especially The Man Who). Good stuff.

    Hang in there!

    By Blogger Miss MyLastName, at 5:16 PM, December 09, 2004  

  • Will most definitely check 'em out. Tit for tat, butter for fat. Check out The Perishers (songs 'Trouble Sleeping' and 'Sway').

    PS I make CDs for all my special people. Anyone want a freebie 'Alternative' sample, leave me your address...tis the season blahblahblah,falalalala-lalalala, dreideldreideldreidel...

    By Blogger Plantation, at 5:22 PM, December 09, 2004  

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    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:53 PM, December 10, 2004  

  • Anon,

    Thanks large (Bugs Bunny term)! I have to shamefully admit that I've not heard of The Blue Nile. Thanks so much for your magnanimous offer. I'm flattered. I'll send you the info off-line.

    By Blogger Plantation, at 1:23 PM, December 10, 2004  

  • your quite welcome. you can email your info to sabdelaziz@bellsouth.net this will hopefully give you a new prospective. (a little info re the blue nile- from scotland- have put out four albums since the mid eighties. one every 7 years give or take. a favorite of many artists including annie lennox,peter gabriel,phil collins, ricki lee jones. songs have been covered by rod stewart,annie lennox,craig armstrong(massive attack)collaborations with peter gabriel, ricki lee jones,julian lennon, chris botti,elizabeth fraser (cocteau twins). media darlings-Q mag.-5 stars(hats)-a perfect album- from the soul- wonderful, beautiful, haunting.run a yahoo search. look for the blue nile web pages.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 4:47 PM, December 10, 2004  

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